The process of adoption was no easy feat, but you did it. You worked tirelessly towards growing your family and joining the ranks of motherhood. The day you brought your child home, you felt the happiness of becoming a mother, a feeling you had worked towards for so long. Warm tears streamed down your face as your heart beat uncontrollably. You experienced a new type of love and adoration as you held your child with the carefulness of a first-time mother.
But now that the newness of motherhood has worn off, you feel down, and you can’t stop asking yourself why. You didn’t expect to feel anything other than happiness.
You may be struggling to make sense of your emotions, but Adoption Choices of Colorado wants you to know you’re not alone! It’s okay to feel this way. Motherhood can bring about a roller coaster ride of emotions, especially when adoption comes into play. Rest assured, there are coping mechanisms to help you journey through this difficult time.
THE EMOTIONS OF AN ADOPTIVE MOTHER
As an adoptive mom, completing the adoption process means you’re finally able to settle in with your new family. While that idea seems inviting, adjusting to motherhood can present difficulties. In some cases, adoption-related issues arise long after the adoption, and you may feel unprepared for the lifelong process of adoption.
Some parental stressors are the same types of challenges that all families—biological and adoptive—face; however, there are other potential stressors unique to adoptive mothers.
Guilt. Believe it or not, many post-adoptive mothers experience guilt in the months following adoption. It’s not uncommon to find yourself feeling sad for your child’s birth mother. The deeper you fall in love with your precious baby, the more you realize the level of loss you child’s birth mother must be feeling.
Identity. Adoption is a life event that changes the identities of all involved. As an adoptive mother, this change in identity means the realization of the long-awaited role of Mom and all it entails. But you may not feel like a “real” mother, even after the adoption is complete. It’s normal to adjust to motherhood slowly and question the expectations that accompany your new identity.
Depression. Despite the anticipation of motherhood, you might be surprised to find yourself facing feelings of sadness when you bring your new child home. Becoming a parent — often on short notice — can be stressful, which is why some adoptive mothers experience Post-Adoption Depression Syndrome (PADS). The realities of parenthood, including lack of sleep and the weight of parental responsibilities, can be overwhelming.
As an adoptive mother, you might find yourself wondering why you feel anything less than happy. After all, adoption was the goal for some time. But you shouldn’t give motherhood a fairytale facade. As with most aspects of life, becoming a mother has its ups and downs.
YOU’RE NOT ALONE; WAYS TO COPE WITH THESE EMOTIONS
How do you overcome emotions such as frustration, fear and grief? Why can’t I just be happy with my version of motherhood? These are questions you may be asking yourself. It would be ideal to only experience the upsides of adoption, but that’s not realistic.
While there’s really no way to completely escape the negative emotions of motherhood, there are ways to overcome them and keep on living.
Accept your feelings as normal. Fear, grief, frustration – these are all common emotions. Nowhere is it written that life will go completely according to plan. In fact, it’s quite the opposite. While you can never fully escape your emotions, you can learn to manage and live with them. Fear and frustration are only as powerful as you allow them to be in your life.
Manage your parental expectations. Don’t set unreasonable expectations for yourself. Leading up to the moment you’re able to take your child home, you form an ideal version of parenthood. If you feel unable to meet the standards you’ve set for yourself, a wave of inadequacy can overcome you. If you align your expectations with reality, this feeling can, and most likely will, dissipate. No mother is perfect! Remember that.
Confide in trusted family members and friends. Motherhood isn’t easy. Don’t make it harder by isolating yourself. It’s more than okay to vent or ask for advice. Open your mouth, speak, and let your worries, fears, and struggles tumble out. Not only will you feel better, but loved ones will be able to connect with you better.
Attend support groups. Hearing how other mothers adjusted to parenthood can be reassuring. Adoptive parent support groups are meant to lend a hand and a sympathetic ear to those who need it. More experienced adoptive parents can even serve as role models for you. Utilize support groups to connect with others in similar situations, vent your feelings in a safe environment, receive supportive feedback, and learn new parental strategies.
Post adoption struggles are not uncommon. Becoming an adoptive mother changes you. Even those prepared and eager to have a child can easily find themselves overwhelmed during the transition.
THE UPSIDES OUTWEIGH THE DOWNSIDES
Adoptive motherhood can bring tremendous joy—and a sizable amount of stress. But there are many more upsides to motherhood than there are downsides.
Adoption Choices of Colorado wants to assure you that you’re going to be okay. We know motherhood isn’t just about headaches. It’s a truly moving experience. But obstacles are inevitable, and we’re here to help in any way we can. As an adoptive mother, a willingness to learn about the issues and seek support, if necessary, can help ensure that you and your child experience happy and healthy lives.
Adoption Choices of Colorado
For more information on adoption please contact Adoption Choices of Colorado. We can reached via our website or phone 303-670-4401.
Make an Impact
Adoption Choices, Inc. is partnering with Crowdrise, a fundraising website for nonprofits, to help our adoptive parents and birth parents with much needed financial assistance. We understand that expenses keep clients from fulfilling their dreams. Both with birth parents making a plan for adoption, and with adoptive parents growing their family. It is our mission to provide financial assistance through grants and scholarships, awarded annually in November, in honor of National Adoption Month. Funds assist adoptive parents with matching and placements, adoption finalization and helping birth mothers improve their lives through higher education — and much more.
However, we can’t do it alone. Please read up on our programs and donate money where you are able. Your donation will make a huge impact.
About the Author
Patience Bramlett, a University of Southern Mississippi news editorial graduate, is a seasoned and award-winning freelance writer. She is also a passionate reader, whose only wish is to live life without fear of the unknown. Her motivation and inspiration to live her best life stems from the words of John Lennon:
“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy.’ They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.”
This year, she’s joining Adoption Choices Inc. as an Editorial Intern. Fueled by her love of family, she hopes to educate those looking to grow their families through adoption.
When Patience is not exploring Colorado with her husband, she’s drinking coffee, forever figuring out how to tame her hair, growing her library, and trying to break into the publishing career.
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Stephanie joined the Adoption Choices family in 2014 as the Child Placement Supervisor. Her love for adoption began in first grade when she made friends with twins adopted from Vietnam. Her heart grew strong over the years for adopted children and ultimately led her to graduate school where she continued her focus to her dream of working in the adoption field. Stephanie earned a Master of Social Work degree from the University of Denver in 2001. Over the past 15 years, Stephanie has worked as a pregnancy counselor and as an adoptive parent counselor for foster care, international adoption and domestic adoption, writing hundreds of home studies for families, and helping build their forever families. Stephanie is married and has three boys ages 12, 9, and 5. Together with her family she enjoys riding bike, playing games, watching her three sons compete in their various sporting and musical activities and go on vacations.
Christy Ikeler, is our Executive Director and Birth Parent Director. Christy has been with Adoption Choices Team for 18 years, since opening the doors in 2002! Christy has a true passion for what she does and her true love is working with and helping each birth parent. Whether she is up all night on the phone talking with them, taking them to doctors appointments, out for their favorite treat, providing counseling or at the hospital during labor and delivery, Christy is very involved every step of the way. She has a contagious laugh and a spunky personality that our birth moms all can bond with and relate to. As an adoptive parent herself, adoption holds a very special place in her heart and she can relate on every level with both birth parents and adoptive parents. In her free time Christy loves spending time with her daughter, gardening, baking and taking vacations with her family. Christy is an excellent leader for our team at Adoption Choices and is truly one of a kind!! As Executive Director, Christy spends time with the staff, birth parents and adoptive families in order to ensure that the agency is running smoothly. She has placed a huge emphasis on community outreach and programs for birth parents. Christy loves the opportunity to lead the agency into a brighter future.
Ms. Mackenzie has built a successful counseling career over the past 20 years, supporting mothers and families, people of all ages and genders, students, community professionals and fellow clinicians. Liv values a diverse professional focus, including the entrepreneurial life of a sole proprietor, the evaluative process of certifying foster/adoptive homes, the insightful and mindful one-on-one one work with enthusiastic clients, and serving as an advocate for underserved populations. Liv is a Licensed Professional Counselor and holds a BA in Pre-Law and Economics from American University, an MA in Counseling from Adams University and a certificate in Human Resource Management from Villanova University. Away from work you will find Liv spending time in nature, biking to the farmer’s market and adventuring with her family.
Catherine A. Madsen, joined the Adoption Choices family as legal counsel in 2013. Catherine is responsible for providing legal guidance to the Agency, training and updating staff on developments in adoption law and legislation, and program development. Catherine
Virginia Frank is an adoption attorney accredited since 1991 with the American Academy of Adoption Attorneys. Ms. Frank is a leader in the field of private adoption and has completed over 4,000 adoptions in her career. Ms. Frank has a law degree from Oklahoma City University and a BA in both Political Science and Communications from the University of Oklahoma.
Cassidie has been with Adoption Choices since 2015, she has her bachelors in Interdisciplinary Affairs with concentrations in both Sociology and Business Management. Cassidie has additional training in Victim Advocacy, foster care and has been working in women’s services for over 10 years. Cassidie has always had a heart for adoption and it was her career dream to work in adoption. She started off doing volunteer work for advocacy programs, adoption organizations and worked in High Risk Maternal Fetal Medicine through the University of Colorado Hospital and Children’s Hospital of Colorado. Cassidie is also blessed to have personally experienced an adoption of her own in 2012, completing her family of five! Cassidie loves what she does as a case worker from initial phone calls, meetings, doctor appointments, interaction with the adoptive families to delivery and counseling. Cassidie has a passion for those in need and strives to help make a difference in the lives of the people she meets. She is a firm believer in being kind, compassionate and open minded in all situations. “Unless you’ve walked in their shoes, there’s no place for judgment. A kind word or compliment can go a long way!” The bittersweet moments in adoption reminds Cassidie each and every time, why she loves what she does!